i hate him right now. im so fucking done... done!!!! i cant even type correctly. i seriously fucked up my hand but fuck.... seriously.... why fucking me.. why do i have to deal with this shit.. its one fucking thing after another. come on im ready... for fucking anything.. I've reached my snapping point so fucking bring it. I'm writing to no one.. no one reads this bullshit. why should i even try anymore... im wrong... everything i do, feel, think, is wrong... so why even fight?? right?? go ahead.. break me down.. make me cry. im ready. I want it. I want everything to end. I'm done with fake friends.. im done with bullshit..im done with being scared... im so fucking sick and tired of my lifestyle....I'm done with feeling like this.. im done with the lack of common sense in certain people... im done with no one understanding... im fucking sick of being told what to do and how to feel or think... I'm sick of all this shit... and why do i worry so much... fucking why... is there a fucking point... am i even making any fucking sense... idk anymore. how much more can i fucking take.. really???? fuck my hand hurts.... fuck i want out of this place... I hate it here right now.... im drinking my stress reliever like its fucking water.. I feel so tense right now. I dare someone to try to step to me... I actually want someone to hurt me.. plz...plz... hit me... for the love of god or anyone with a straight fucking mind.. take me out... make the pain go numb....why does the word "fuck" make me feel better. i dont fucking know but im gonna keep saying it.
FUCK!!!!!!! FUCK!!! FUCK!!!! FUCK!!!! i feel worthless... but thats what they all want right.. mission accomplished. im finished here.